Since we are on the topic of pace and mobility (and whats not), this is an apt picture to put together rather than have it on a separate blog entry. My mother bought it for me for wearing at home, due to my heel injuries. I was told that no one wears such expensive footwear at home.

Emotionally its hasnt been very peaceful for me for couple of days, or longer. I was irritated on some mornings which made me even more frustrated.



My "in-mobility" in a way isnt jus in terms of where I can go (and for how long and for how far, before I start feeling the tiredness and pain at the ankles and heels, as well as the psychological barrier whenever there is great distances to walk) but also my in-mobility in life. In clearer sense, my (lack of) pace in life.



No one else will be able to tell me what to do, what-not to do, what is right or wrong, or even how to change/improve my life, how to get me to where I want, what is it that I want; I dont think I am smarter in having all the answers for that. But I tell myself, this is a process and that it happens to be at the down, or non-moving, period for me now. I keep reminding myself that the race (i.e. life) is long and even if I am not at where I desire now it doesnt mean that I will never reach there, or that I am a loser to someone over there.



I am going to make it, I dont know how but somehow I will.

For some cosas (things), the existence is because those cosas started out in the first place. Perhaps thats also a good enough reason sometimes but you really dont know when it runs out of reasons for its existence.

Google image..

It was like a scene in the movie. My boss, in his uniform, jus came to the office. He. jus. walked. in.

Its an addiction in sports that I have (currently its swimming) so its gets to me if I leave the pool without feeling refreshed.

Which underlying is a bigger problem.

Deberes para 27 febrero, viernes: escribe mi apartamento o casa
Mi casa es quince metros del centro y cerca casa del amigas. Mi casa tiene tres habitacion y jardin. Mi favorita es jardin con arboles y flores. Me gusta come en el jardin.Mi salon es exterior pero es tranquilo. Porque hay poco trafico. Me gusta ver la television en mi salon porque hay aire acondicionado. Quiero mi habitacion rosa. Ahora es rojo.

Homework for 27 February, Friday: describe my apartment or house
My house is 15 meters from the central, and near to my friends' houses. My house has 3 bedrooms and a garden. My favourite is the garden with trees and pretty flowers. I like to eat in the garden. My living room faces the street but it is quiet. This is because there is little traffic. I like to watch television in my living room as there is air conditioning. I want my bedroom pink. Now it is red.

As you can see, I have described mimi's house. jeje

And yes I wrote the above paragraph mostly from words that I have learnt. (But because I dont know how to pronounce azul (blue), I had to replace that with rojo (red).

I love setting holiday photos to be my wallpaper, for the wallpaper is sort of the only window to the bigger world when busy at work. Naturally photos of planes, clouds, overseas skies, calle (street), hillviews are my favourites.

Recently it was the Mickey mouse designed ceiling fans (taken in a shop in Barcelona) and now its a shot of mercado (market)- The St Josep La Boqueria with the backdrop to be amazing blue skies.

Sometimes I forget why I started on learning espanol other than "learning a foreign language keeps me occupied", especially when the other language French is rather attractive to me too. But its because I love the ciudad (city) when I viajes to Europe for the first time.

I said to myself, as I pulled the luggage out from the metro and looked at the building in front of me, woo this is Barcelona.

I've always wanted to keep going to new places/ciudades/paises (countries) because there are so many in this world to go to. I dont want myself to keep going back to any particular country even if I love it so much for that I will never know where else I will love to. I want new adventures, which is better experienced by exploring the unfamiliars.

But Barcelona/Spain is definitely one place I want to be back again.

Its already febrero (February) and its time to start planning. This time, I want to take it abit slow, so that I can experience more of each place I set foot on.

I am the covering office for 2 weeks. Today is Day 4 of week 1 and the situation (if you dont hear often from me you sort of guess it already) is as follow:

Colourful fishes swimming around...

Things moving at a soaring speed...

Basically our team is up to our necks

(I know this looks like a fashion photo to you but its really "up to our necks" photo)


This is Arradon, Northwestern France. I love this place though I doubt I will make it so deep into France but this photo of sea/coastal and fishes and living by the coastal areas interests/ fascinates me greatly.
I think we as a team will be reaching this stage :)

Sometimes I come home so overwhelmed with work and happenings of the day that all I can do is sit in front of the tv/ surf /listen to music todo noche (all night).

Tonight is one/another such night and this is solo lunes (Monday only).

Give me mas (more) strength, por favor (please).

p/s: Because of this, tonight Mimi (my virtual cat/pet) has finally arrived at the stage of High Profile Pet in Pet Society. My sister and I suspect that shopping in Pet Society (with virtual coins) have sort of satisfy my cravings for shopping.

My theories/principles/beliefs in life have always been simple, but it seems like simplicity itself is a problem as well.

One such case is increasingly apparent/is already a problem as I see it flows through from the personal life to corporate: when it is not my mistake, yes even if my goal is to get things going/done/resolved, I will not volunteer/ admit it is my mistake.

My simple "theory" holds for all situation, regardless of whether I can profit from the situation (if I admit its my mistake when it is not) or not. I believe in the theory because I believe there is law and justice in every/any case, and there are certainly cases whereby there is a right and a wrong. Perhaps there is always a very thin line between my so-called simple theory and being (a) inflexible, or (b) arrogant/self-centered.

How I have been coping all these whiles is that many times I kept quiet, but silence should not be taken to be an admission of a mistake.

I dont think I am a confused soul, but more of a misfit.

(termometro en) fahrenheit

I spend most of ayer (yesterday) sleeping y (and) watching television, but most of hoy (today) aprenda castellano (learn spanish) y listening to la musica (music) by fahrenheit.

Casa todas el tiempo.

I love listening to music but there are times whereby I couldnt find any songs that my brain wants to listen to, whereby I keep skipping songs on my ipod list, which ended up making me feel restless/frustrated over not having any music by the ears.

But I am excited because after days of silent, I am listening to this album, the album of an upcoming new show. The show's about a girl who has agorafóbico (agoraphobia), or the abnormal fear of open or public places.

Plus I am going back to swimming from Monday onwards!

And, I should stop tripping over.

I logged off from the oficina correo electronico (office email) and went off to escuela (school): escuela being NUS Buz Ad. On and off since I left escuela I have since went back for lunches. But those lunches were no igualmente (not the same)- I was with my work team, in our ropa de mujer (women clothing), and with a common agenda of going back oficina right after lunch.

Today was different because I was back in escuela with the companero o la amiga (companion of the friend). The car park, the flight of stairs, the seminar rooms, the biblioteca (library), the deck, the arts canteen... those were the places where we used to hang around. For once our conversations did not involve much of work and work matters but rather the projects we used to do, the modules we used to take, the kind of lifetstyle as estudiantes (students), the aimgas we used to have...

It is the past we never can change, but if you ask me, its the past and there is no need to change anything nor go back. Even if I would be a estudiante in the future, it would never be like the past.

I am glad I had been here before, and so lets jus look forward.

If you ask me, Valentine's day is jus like a marathon: there are people running everyday but still there are times for people to run together; these marathon runners pay to run with others on the same day!

Do you look back and cant really recall how the days went by even if you were "busy" all the time.

I always have problems remembering all the things I do (and enjoy doing), all the emotions, all the memories- the journey in short. (Other than my love for writing) Thats one reason why I have a blog that I regularly share almost everything on. Even though I hadnt quite gotten into reading these entries, I think I would appreciate them much more in time to come- when I am 60, 70, 80.

And now Google Calendar for me- its nothing new but I jus happen to like them now.

This is something I/we will love to do- having breakfast in Buz Ad canteen. I cant think of anyone else better to go back to school with, and I am afraid there wouldnt be anyone left. Of course I have to inform the people to turn up in their university-days attire.

And I've received an email from Sally & Randel (recall: I met them while waiting for a train from Vienna to Prague and we ended up touring most of Prague together). Apparently they too were waiting for me to write as they have lost my email address.

Its easier to stay contact these days, but it is jus as easy to lost contact these days.

This is from my sister- victoria from ny, so nice smelling..

There is this section in the daily complimentary MyPapers which features pictures of rain- they analyse you/your character based on what you draw. And this is what I draw. Which is pretty much based on days in Prague, whereby its raining all days and I were still out there shopping & taking photos & walking.

And yes I am back to class today. Its Lesson 1 and I know I should spend the entire weekend to revise & learn well.

I am feeling...

...sick because I ate gu cai (a type of vegetables you shouldnt eat if you have internal injuries- I have heel injuries) and the feeling was what I felt when I have food allergies- chest pain, backaches.

...tired because I have been stressed all through the week

...stress because the three weeks ahead would be packed

...anxious because of wanting/having to do so many things

...awful because of all the above

I need some flying soon. Alright, at least a break..

Printing can be a stressful job element sometimes, especially when the circumstances include:

1. urgent need of documents
2. different kind of paper to be used for some pages of some of the documents
3. different time sensitive information in different documents

I stationed next to the printer so as to save time and walking to and fro my cubicle and the printer.

At least the first, i.e. the printing stops the moment the documents are sent out, round of printing is completed.

I hope it means I can have a better sleep tonight.

I am not lost, I jus need some time to sort through what is it that I want.

Its didnt feel like its a new calendar year to me even if we are already in February. I guess when you arent in school, there is no new school year, school reopen or textbooks to clearly draw a line across the year that has passed and the year coming.


Other than getting myself back into Spanish Beginner2 class, I hadnt given a proper thought of other plans for the year, e.g.



1. how to stop wasting time/life doing unproductive and purely leisure stuff (like watch TV and play online games),


2. how I want to see myself and how I can work towards that,



3. how I want my holidays to be (yes holidays need to be properly plan-out)


4. how I am seeing myself at work- the first milestone is to wait for April's review of the performance appraisal.


I should start on this soon.

I have periodic feelings towards my weight, i.e. sometimes I feel I am fatter than normal, sometimes I feel I am normal. I do suspect that my weight in fact flunctuates quite a bit.

And of course I am now at the period where I think/know I am fatter than normal. Imagine CNY goodies plus 2 weeks without any sports (recall: CNY week plus this week when I am recovering from fever). Which makes it worse that the menstration, if on time, will make that 3 weeks without sports. Dont be mistaken, I love sports as much as weight loss due to sports.

It doesnt help that I had Macs for lunch before CNY and jus now. The $4.50 meal makes good business.

It was 30 hours of sleep since Friday night till now, and the fever is almost completely gone.