This is not the first time to experience what could have been a slight effect from an earthquake. The very first time saw me in a meeting room hearing what sounded like the cracking of glass panes and this time I was leaning against my desk feeling as though I was sailing through choppy waters. Actually after those moments today when I got on board a train, I realised having to try to balance myself through certain shaky duration of the rides could have been more violent than those slightest temors, though you feel more scared in the later.

And I am already exhausted to to the extreme.

Fast food, is like rainbow- good for people who want to mix & match, good for people who love variety but more importantly also good for The Indecisive. But not everything is suitable to be sold based on the model of fast-food business- consider the wonderful car if one starts buying a pair of car wheels today and another pair two days later; and the whole of the car parts by parts.
If there is something I want to tell you today
Rotten apples are like rainbows- there are many ways to be rotten.

I spend a big part of today sorting out the files on the desktop into the black external drive. Which involves going through folders to determine if they have already been back-up already. And its good to add more photos, especially family photos dated back to 2005. Hopefully this makes the desktop perform much faster too. But it probably needs another day of work to get it clearly sorted out.

There was this story about how an injuried boxer whom was adviced not to return to the sport even after a much-needed operation later found hope to train and make it back to the ring. How is it that mentality you could get stronger with growing up from the past, even if there were less that pleasant events, but physically you dont get stronger after a fall.

I walked among those displays of shoes but found no interest nor reason to be looking at them, not even their designs. My pair was a newly purchased which I had not run in them for more than a few, now I could hardly recall how many times, occasions.

And if I dont talk about it, it bothers me lesser.

There were those moments whereby I couldnt seem to work on any art and craft projects which I knew they werent the best times. And sitting in a room all day didnt help- it made me feel more stuck.

Then I selected the photo of a green balloon floating in the skies as my wallpaper thinking that if I couldnt get the real thing, looking at the sky from my little screen should help a little. I wanted to make that feeling into a card. The feeling of seeing showers of bright sunshine outside the building, the feeling of looking up and feeling bright.

I'm back on the tunnel project sooner than I expected because there is now not one but two tasks relating to that.

My favourite plant around the house needs some hair trimming.

Google image, from supposedly a train station in France. I supposed unless I live there, I would never be caught waiting in a train station in this attire. And while it isnt one of my favourite city among those that I have visited, nor one that I would thought of going back, having a friend residing there makes it all the different. I am, waiting.

This seems to be the waiting season. Waiting for things to be confirmed, waiting for recoveries, waiting for things to move. In the end, its all about me wanting to move ahead and waiting to improve and meet my desires.

Still it makes sense that I should not be indulging in the mindset that all these waitings are long, are boring. The only mentality to bring me through is to never give up.

Time is abundant but I should not slip.
Be patient, because the race is too long to pre-judge or give up.

While I have been pretty silent on the thoughts going through my mind, indeed many have come, linger and/or go. I am still sorting through them but progress is getting pretty nowhere and by now I feel as if I am not motivated to work through it, but jus walk through it.

And for the first time I feel as if I am living in the human resources/management modules.

What do I usually do when I am feeling this way, I wonder. And what else can I do now.

It has gone beyond jus carrots and the other vegetables that I have developed allergies towards. It becomes abit of a paranoid because I didnt want to have taken food that I shouldnt. But food will become lesser of an issue come next week when I will be back to swimming.

This is jus for the records.

Friday and even the earlier part of today were bad, for the legs. For once on friday I wasnt picky over the songs playing in my ipod, for I was struggling to stand in line waiting for buses, or anxiously looking out for the bus stop to alight so that finally I can get to sit. Every song in the ipod magnify the disappointment, fear and anxiety in me yet at the same time there is some parts of the lyrics that encourage me to be strong. I couldnt stop crying in the bus. And I had chosen to sleep the earlier of today away.

I try not to talk about it too much here but I supposed its still an episode of life.

Thats the Arradon I think I will like.

If I am somewhere near, this is where I want to go: Arradon, Northwestern France. I was nearly there if I've gone to Brittany.

The 10 September day has becoming less of a period in life as a benchmark of the things I want to achieve over a certain period. Maybe because benchmarking is an ongoing process, and trying each year after each year to achieve it before or on that particular day can be accumulatively tiring or disappointing. And so it has now jus a day of dressing up, feeling special and hoping to feel most hopeful of the future, and sometimes also a day on the accounting books to accrue for (a previous massive) shopping spree.

But weeks ago I wish I am well by the birthday, well enough for all the normal daily activities, or even well enough to wear my heels by this day. And months ago I wish I am well enough to run by this day.

The new bigger family

Lets grow up together with those chilli seeds

He is staring at you

Spot the difference: the ribbon got it wrong

You can tell the weather from this: the plant needs some sunshine

Click on it for a bigger view! The online magazine I created featuring residential (interior design, renovations and custom-made furniture) and commerical (office fittings, shelving and storage solutions and pharmacy fittings) projects.

www.suntracksconcepts.com - and the company website also created by me.

For things you think it will last; for things you think it would not - they have nothing to do with what you think; they may have nothing to do with distances or time either.

I was trying to imagine how her house looks like, how her potted plants would fill the balcony during summers or how her potted plants would seek shelter inside the house during winters, the beaches she would visit in Spain... I hope she will come by Singapore one day.