record time of 14hrs in school...

hey 'cooker' thanks... u make a difference in my day..

tell me wednesday is worth waiting for.. it is. at least now im ever so sure.. and i hadnt been in such a lousy mood than today.. been making a mess out of everything - within, or beyond my control.. thanks for tolerating you guys..

sometimes something is so worth waiting for because it is what you want. sometimes something is so to be waited for because, jus because you need to get it done.

done.

i told myself that i will be happy after this wednesday. it is as though i am waiting to be happy after wednesday. what if when wednesday comes and i am not happy? or not as happy as i expect?

my room is, in a battle with, itself. simply because of me, and my notes.
well i am battling with those calculations of personal finance.. exam tomorrow

my friend told me this~ happiness is like a crystal ball, when it falls to the ground and shatters into pieces, some people get more than the others...

crystal ball happiness..

they always trace and allocate costs to different cost objects.. does God does the same thing for us as well? Does he traces happiness to our hearts and souls?

well anyway, im way bored of this layout. its jus that my hands are tied, couldnt find time off to do this... though it probably wouldnt take up much time since much is being provided... cya when i feel better to talk

through the glass panes, i see the rain fall to the ground. i cant hear the sound it is making, but i can feel my heart's raining also.

one week more before the important business case presentation is made. and after the class jus now, i know how much stress im going to face.

i wish the sun is out now.

Twice i feel my heat beats, reminding myself that im alive

when i jog

and when i see ...

the day when i know i will be jogging as the evening falls, im becoming to enjoy a better mood. even though it started out as something i force myself to stick to each week.

i know if i do not resort to that, i will never find time to excuse myself to jog, because it doesnt appeal to the top of priorities. but it has since become a weekly get-away. a short get-away. far from what i imagine a get-away is. one with the sky & the sea, the sun and more sun. thats what i wanted badly when i keep getting to be on my way home only after the sun falls. but jogging brings me nearer to that sort of get- away. loud music, sweat, occasional evening shine/ heat is what i
anticipate the day im jogging. today.

and hey u know, im still on tracking with my jogging :)

missing is missing..
the feeling of missing in me, is missing

* * *

i think
i wait
i anticipate

there's someone waiting in the future.
how long does it takes for luv to arrive.

who would i meet
what conversations would we have
the U im waiting for is in the future.

i took the number and stood in the line.

this is a translation of this theme song done by yan zi. its so loving and meaningful such that i wanted to include it.

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you feel ageing. but not from within yourself. but you see it in your parents. perhaps its so difficult to admit it, but its becoming more obvious fact that dawns on you, making you accept it.

you see them getting old each day. you dont see yourself getting old so soon. you still go down to orchard like when you were in your secondary school days. you still stay up late at nite. you still need not as much sleep as they. occasionally you still fussle over the one pimple on your face.

dear me, im still in school... in fact, i had been in school for the last 12 hours. and the only one hour break i could find was spend studying for my impending personal finance test... what a life huh?

anyway in my personal finance sectional today, we talked something about being at the peak. (i bet that 12 hours is a record- stretch of my concentration).. and its so true you know, it applies to our life as well, that we do not know when is the peak till it is over...

happiness disappears like bubble.. leaving behind barely any trace.. jus 2 days ago when i turned 20, i was elated, especially with the birthday wishings from my friends.. 2 days later, the joy barely exists. you hardly could see a smile on my face..

dear me..

While i walked down the pathway together, back at the same one as one and the half year ago,listening to Daniel Bedingfield's never gonna leave your side, I felt a different way. But i could see that whatever was promised long ago might be gone.

I dont know if to believe that promises have eternal life span. never gonna leave your side . .