finding that answer in the world

Even when I am curious, I don't want to show that. And anything that indicates my position scares me.

Just my thinking, I supposed and even if someone else has the answer to my curiosity, I will never now know.

So, not every answer is unknown to the world, but jus unknown to me.

the truth is often difficult to handle

I hide away from how I feel, from myself and from the view of others, so that things can be simple.

And the truth is often difficult to handle - but it doesn't make any difference to facing it now or later.

But mostly, the truth comes much later, though one can always try "feeling the truth".

because i think it will end, also

One of those days that no matter how far the walk takes you, it didn't make you feel better.

In the end, I came back feeling more tired and of course nothing changes.

Too outcome-driven, too impatient, too fast, too slow...

I do everything to try to find out if it will end eventually so that the end can come earlier