I am bored... 

I went to get something done together. Was so hoping that they could be completed before you are away. Argh but its coming on friday only. So I am not going to tell you what it is! Going to give you a shock/ surprise the next time *smucks*

Now, I am getting bored, and so becoming lazy. Or I am becoming lazy and that is why I am bored. Anyway! Appetite is getting from bad to worse. Badly eating anything unless I eat out. Shucks. Ahead is the boring May already, especially when you are going to be away so often! Argh.

If there is one thing I want to tell you today
Totally dislike it when you are so away.

We will get better
time is always the cure
We will get over
because before he was here, we had been fine
We will be together
to support each other as we trail the roads aimlessly
We will be near
no matter how far

Life is getting unusually boring.

A tagged mood
a lazy body
a restless heart
an empty soul
a slow-working brain
a pair of widely-open eyes
The me that I dont like

And yap the ice-cream we had (chestnut and green tea) are from Lenotre, Siam Paragon..

Bangkok sharing... oh no! so many different flavor. They tasted more sticky and harder than what ice-cream usually would be... arent too sweet too... 

Ice-cream!! 

Bangkok sharing... doesnt it look disgusting! A worm infested cake! 

I love those days.

Anyway best friend and I were talking. And I am starting to feel that I belonged to the world of aliens. We are aliens because we dont believe in trying; we believe things will work out when we put the commitment and responsibilities. We are aliens because we dont believe in keep having t-h-e next one; we believe each time there is only one. We are aliens because we dont believe the things that people do when they are only trying; we believe its ours before we could do them. We are aliens because our definition of dating is not trying.

If there is one thing I want to tell you today
Yes we are aliens.

Privacy is something I guard closely, jus like treasure finders guarding their gold discovery.

Freedom is something I fought for, jus like how soldiers went for battles.

Feeling is something I conceal well, jus like how kids never cry in front of the adults who would frown on them.

Tiredness is how I feel. Think I am still only used to this well constructed and privately guarded space I maintained a year ago.

I didnt realise they look so delicious till I saw this picture. If someone is going to find them, please help me try either one of them and let me know how it taste? I would love the orange or lemon pastry!!!!! 

Bangkok sharing... didnt have any of this though they look tempting. Ever since I started on my thesis, I refrained myself from stuff like chocolate because I fall sick easily if I consume too much of them (and too little water and rest). 

I jus came back from the dentist. A nightmare though jus a check-and-clean-affair.

I was asked into the room to wait. Sat on the chair and the nurse adjusted the seat such that my feet left the ground. Shucks! I supposed I cant run away. And I had to undergo the trauma of listening to the sounds of the equipment/machine (?) while the dentist served another patient before me.

I grabbed my mobile phone in one hand, and tissue paper on the other. Seeing them hold up those mental equipments and putting them into my mouth, I shut my eyes. I cant imagine looking at the pair of eyes, as well as the images of those equipment. But I could still hear the sound of the equipment and feel the poking of those pointed equpment. When the checking was done, the dentist proceeded to polishing my teeth. I dont like that either! Make me feel like he is spreading sand all over my teeth! When I am done, I thought I literally broke out in cold sweat.

Feeling uncomfortable still!

Bill for my nightmare: $40 

I am going to the dentist for regular check-up at 2pm. Argh! I wouldnt have wanted to go if my mother insisted and booked the appointment. I so dislike it! Argh!!

Dont you think they look at potted plants rather than salads? 

Ok thats the thing that caught our attention! Think my traveling partner tried it and commented that it was too sweet. Think its their traditional food... but too expensive also! 

So cute! 

More nicely-made food products... 

Kinda cute right? 

We had a great time going around and look at the pretty food though they wouldnt really allow you to take photos of them. But still I cant resist! 

Mickey! 

Thats cute! 

We did ask them to let us taste. Think we thought it tasted more like desert than kaya... 

Bangkok sharing... (Ar I forget that I still have photos for it, but I reckoned no one is following them either).. Anyway this is taken in the supermarket of Siam Paragon. A super duper interesting and huge place to walk. See that orange paste? Its potato kaya! The brown one is another type of kaya too!  

I know I am sorry for what I have done but it was done for your sake. I atoned for what I did and I hope I have already "paid back" what I would have otherwise owed. I hope it isnt the case of this that created such an ending since I reckoned I still believe that the ending came about because it was meant to be. Regardless of whether I have done it or not, this ending is a better one for you.

I remembered when I first came in Business School, I was alone. Didnt have other people whom I know from college that is going into Bizad. So naturally I didnt quite like the place though I dont dislike it too. It jus feel so unfamiliar to me. And Bizad was jus a school for me. I went for classes and off I go. Because the modules and timetable were given to us and not knowing how to change it, I stuck to a 5-day week. I spent most times in HSS M Library, the business library, alone. I avoided the canteen most of the time because I felt that it was a place that people go with their friends. I dont have friends and that place made this fact more obvious to me. I got intimidated by the crowd (for no reason) and so even if I do take early lunches from the canteen, its always Muslim food. And coming from college, I wasnt quite used to working in project groups. Or rather I dont enjoyed working with so many unfamiliar people. I know its my character too.

I think the module [Management and Organization] was a good-bad thing. It was good because I kinda enjoyed my project group a bit. Thats also when I knew Charles and Christopher, friends from Mauritius. I remembered being very curious about this little island off Africa. It was bad because I didnt find it particularly interesting. It was eventually surprising because I realised I got an A for it, the only A for my first semester. And our group leader was Sumei, a very dedicated and resourceful one.

[Introduction to Statistics] was horrible. I dont like statistics nor my irritating group mate who insisted on rehearsing numerous times for presentations. I dislike it most when this person never stop calling me.

[Marketing] was quite interesting till I gotten a B- for it and realised I wasnt quite cut for it. I was interested in this module because my dad took marketing courses in the past. Being the daughter of a marketing manager, I supposed I would do well. The project was quite a new thing. I remembered we did a product of a shoe whereby its sole are filled with medicine. It was also a module in which I could ask my dad for a lot of inputs, becoming our common conversation. And yes after that B-, I knew I should keep myself off the bounds of marketing. Maybe my ideas arent good enough. Not forgetting Jeremy who was our leader.

[Legal environment of business] should be well-liked by many because it was a light module. Me too though I thought it was quite interesting. Then again, I dont usually get correct answers for my tutorial questions. But the tutor is really friendly.

I still remembered the first class of [Financial accounting] lecture and tutorial. I was late for lecture, my first lecture in Bizad. Bus 96 was too packed. And I did the wrong set of questions for my first tutorial. I worked very hard for this module because I knew I was bad at balancing figures. I always joked that if I ever become an accountant, the company has to go because the accounts are carelessly but truly a fraud. I also joked that I have to "put in the missing money from my own pocket" because I never could balance anything. And not forgetting the fact that I wasnt good at numbers. But yes, I often waited outside the tutor's office and bombed her with so many questions. She was very patient with me, and so I didnt give up. My project group was quite good since we had a member whose sister is an accountant (read: she helped us answer our questions).

Frankly speaking I couldnt quite remember most of the people that I worked with. And for most, we parted when the projects ended. During the holidays, I worked in Borders with one of my friends from the college, checked my results late (because I didnt know when was the Results Day) and worried over module registration for the next semester. And of course cried the moment I checked my results. I didnt know what kind of results was good but I knew mine wasnt.

Yes! Kids-size??

Kids-size I mean. Ok I don’t want to grow big to fit into their S-size, but sure can they have those clothing in K-size??? Now you know why I love shopping elsewhere!! And I so don’t watch Kids programs (read: but I don’t mind to remain as a kid). And kids don’t wear heels, they wear snickers (read: I love heals but they hurt my feet).

[v2]

Was doing some work in the morning. In fact, I couldnt quite get to sleep till 4am the previous night. I kinda miss the thesis-days, where I would work long hours and sleep well at night. Tiring yet fulfilling. I am barely doing much these days (ok these 2 days).

Then was watching TV (again?) before meeting JY for dinner. Its so nice catching up with her. I love her companion to shop around.

Talk about shopping for working clothes in Singapore- Shucks! It hadnt been good! This is because free-size is not a size! Its too big for me. I love those clothings but they are still very M-sized despite their labels indicating as S-size. Can we have K-size instead?

Not that I am out today. Neither am I away from the computer. But besides the minor spring cleaning session I had today, I was drawing some trade flow graphs for my friend who needs them to be done by tomorrow. So yes, since afternoon I was still faithfully by my computer trying to complete them. No problem, shall get it done by tonight! *smuck* That explains why I am not continuing with my chapters. But if I have the whole of May with nothing to do, it doesnt quite matter.

Still depressed over the fact that I am anywhere but here. I want a holiday!!

I seriously think that I need a regular get-away from home. I so wish I have more reasons to go back to school.

And yes they are all in there (another file not shown in this picture). YIPEE! Ok then tomorrow then continue! 

And there they go into two boxes... 

And so yes they become like this... 

So yes in order not to spoilt the edges of the paper, I have to do this.