I think I am too tired? Wanted to cry it out (yes I am a crybaby at times, laugh if you want) but felt more bottled up for my inability to cry. But when I thought of papa, I stood in the bathroom and cried. Its been almost 9, 10 years but I never stop wishing that he is there for my graduation, or that he should be around longer. He is the one and only person whom I wish he is there as well. Sometimes I didnt miss him for a long time but I guess I always miss him.

Will I ever find someone who will love me as much as him, and my parents.