Sometimes its running and swimming that keeps me alive. At least it keeps me feeling that I am alive, a goal I want to accomplish for the day. Now that the sun is out and I cant swim, I think its adding onto the depression woes.

When depression hits, everything counts. Running, non-disruptive hair, shopping, wearing new clothing, eating, talking, music, entertainment, getting thinner, getting more sleep, either getting alot of work on hand or nothing on hand... everything counts towards helping the depression.

And so today with my new jacket, lunch plan to do my run and the golden hairband to clear my hair from my face... I am working hard to battle with t-h-e depression that doesnt seem to go away after hopefully 2 days.