Sometimes some things seem to make sense to me when they dont used to. How I can understand why jus companion is preferred but anything more seems to be too taxing, too troublesome and too risky. I mean sometimes its too much work to know someone's family and friends and try to get along with them and to risk that this is jus one cycle that might start all over again if it doesnt work out.

When December comes, I am going back to my 10 sleeping-hours-per-day-kind-of-routinue. Totally sleep deprived.

Alright, back to the papers.

I am starting to miss you. Strangely when you are jus opposite of me, I sometimes will freeze and not know what to tell you.