When life gets tough, when I have to struggle, when I have to cry, I tell myself either to keep trying because the (life) race is long or I tell myself to not bother because it isn't important. When I do the latter, at least I only break down when I really couldn't cope. But all other times, I can keep them out of my life, that I don't spend useless energy trying to battle it or waste off by it consuming me.

It hurts like mad but all I can do after, and no matter how much, crying is to sleep and pretend there is hope on a new day.

Why - do I have to try so hard for every single thing in life.